Welcome to Nathan's Cancer Journey

This blog is a reposting of Nathan's Caringbridge page which we updated throughout his battle with Neuroblastoma.

Nathan was born on June 16, 2000, diagnosed with Stage IV Neuroblastoma on April 1, 2003 and died on July 29, 2007.

I have posted the journal here to make it easier to look up by date and also to be able to easily add pictures to the journal entries.

Some of the pictures go along with the text, but many of the pictures you will see were pictures taken on the same date the journal was added, even if the pictures have nothing to do with the text. In the future I may add additional journal entries to go along with pictures to add more explanation/memories.

I am just getting started posting the years of entries and so this will be incomplete for some time. I hope to eventually also post the guestbook entries by date as a comment on the post.

Monday, April 25, 2005

Monday, April 25, 2005 9:39 PM CDT

Nathan had his ortho appointment today and it went well. She definately believes he has more fluid on his hip and said that if he is active it will take 3-4 weeks to heal. The literature I had read about transient synovitis said that is does not recur, but she said that that is outdated and she has found that it does recur - she said she sees it about 3 or 4 times a year. Since the healing time is so long - it makes sense that it was not yet healed when he did all the walking and the fluid built back up.

She spent a lot of time looking over his xrays and MRI with me on her computer. His hips look perfect - she could see no abnormalities. Interestingly she zoomed in on his femur near the growth plate and showed me three distinct lines. She said this happens while a child gets very sick. She said he must have had 3 bouts of fever and neutropenia - which is true. She was very into all the anatomy on the MRI and it was very interesting looking at it all. She is the doctor who diagnosed Nathan with neuroblastoma and we had always thought she did an outstanding job, and I thought so again today. We are now on her nurse's list of people to get right in and accommodate if we need anything. She is very sympathetic to the fear that leg pain in Nathan causes and will see him on a moment's notice anytime we want. She said if his hip isn't healing like we feel it should she might get him into some pool therapy for a week or so to see if it helps.

I took Julia for her blood draw this afternoon. She just screamed in terror. Of course, they had to poke her twice....UGH! She was pretty traumatized, but I think she will get over it once again. She and Nathan have been giving her ponies IVs lately. In fact, the other day they had to be poked twice because the first time didn't work. Both of them can identify with that!

I will still try to post some pictures soon. It is a matter of locating the cable. The chaos in our lives the past month has really taken a toll on the house and it is an absolute wreck. I don't have the energy to do much about it at the moment either. On the bright side - Nathan and Julia have been having lots of fun playing with the open suitcase on the family room floor. They each get in half and Julia actually straps herself into her half and they pretend it is a car. The two of them just play and play. They really are the perfect playmates. Most of their playing is role-playing and they really get into it. It is such a wonderful thing.

After a few weeks without, we went back to church yesterday. Nathan and Julia really love Sunday school. Julia told us some bible story that we don't know (not that hard to do between the two of us). It is really cute. There have been lots of discussions lately about God, Jesus, Heaven and death. I hope I am giving the right answers! Nathan is such a critical thinker. The other day he said, "if babies come from Mommy's tummies, then where did the very first baby come from?". I explained the two schools of thought on that the best I could. Then we had the age old question from Julia about where was heaven and couldn't we just drive our car to get there?

Well - I have actually rambled a little - not easy for me to do. Thanks for checking in.


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Update Wednesday April 27, 2005 4:03 MDT

I just got back from Julia's appointment. Her echo and EKG are normal and platelets are normal and SED rate is almost back to normal (down to 22 from 103). So - it looks like she will not suffer any side effects from this illness and we can move on. We are very relieved. She is happy she can now run around again. She will have a follow-up echo in September.

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Friday, April 22, 2005

Friday, April 22, 2005 4:21 PM CDT

Well - I guess I will give all the details - it might get long though.

Friday morning at 7:30 a limo picked us up at the house and drove us to the airport in Denver. The kids were very excited to be in a limo. I was a little less happy because due to their car seats I had to ride backwards in the limo - which is not great for me with motion. Check in was a breeze because they booked us on Frontier airlines and Nathan and I both achieved frequent flyer status with them last year going back and forth to New York so we got to go the the front of the check-in line. They gave us 3 seats together and 1 apart. My wonderful husband offered to sit with the kids. They were amazingly good. They didn't make a peep. Watched TV, ate, colored and played with play-doh.

We arrived in Orlando without a hitch and were met by a representative from Give Kids the World. They took us to car rental and we signed a piece of paper and were on our way. We went to Give Kids the World (more on what that is in a moment) and checked in. We were all set to stay at the Animal Kingdom Lodge since GKTW (abbreviated) was booked up. Well- when we arrived they had a cancelation and gave us the choice of staying there. After some thought we took them up on and and are so glad we did. Give Kids the World is a resort for families going to Orlando for a wish trip. They have 96 2 bedroom villas for the families to stay in. They also have free meals, free ice cream parlor and lots of activities. There is a carousel, train, 2 pools, and multiple game rooms. It was perfect for Nathan and Julia. So, after we got there we partook of the activities and I went to orientation and got our tickets.

Saturday we went to Sea World and met our friends, Max and Mindy and their kids, Maxx and Miles there. They recently moved to Florida from Colorado Springs and so it was fun to get to hang out with them. We brought a stroller for Julia but let Nathan walk the whole time (more on THAT later). We saw two shows and played in a huge rope climbing area. They loved the shows and we got great seats due to Nathan's Give Kids the World button. We left around 3:00 and went back to GKTW. My parents arrived in town and came over and the kids got to show them all the amenities before we all went out for dinner.

Saturday night Nathan started to complain that his leg hurt. By Sunday morning he was in extreme pain and couldn't walk. It ws the same hip that he had the transient symovitis in. We were set to go to the Magic Kingdom, so with lots of tylenol and ibuprofen we went. We got a special card with a stamp that allowed us to use Nathan's stroller as if it were a wheelchair. This allowed us to take the stroller right up to the ride and transfer him. It was somewhat painful for him to be moved in and out of his stroller - but he beared with it in order to go on the rides. He actually got to ride on the "It's a Small World" ride in his stroller on a special boat. We rode on most every ride they have there. We didn't have to wait in any lines so we had plenty of time. Nathan adored the Thunder Mountain Railway and Goofy roller coasters. He and Julia both agreed that Dumbo and the Magic Carpet rides were the most fun also. There was much snacking and riding and then we parted ways with my parents. They were going to stay at the park and we went to dinner (Steak and Shake - my favorite!) and then to BED!

Monday we went to the Animal Kingdom for the morning. We enjoyed seeing the animals but didn't want to spend the whole day there. There is a ride that simulates a safari and there was a scenario about poachers. IT turns out Nathan was listening very closely and he was actually quite concerned about the "hunters" and it was very difficult to persuade him that it was all pretend. In the afternoon we went back to GKTW and went swimming. They had a BLAST and it was nice to take a break from the parks. Nathan was starting to walk on his leg a little by then. Sunday night we went to downtown Disney and had dinner at the Rainforest Cafe. Nathan and Julia loved the setting there and the fake thunderstorm and animatronics. It was a very nice dinner and once again we went home and went to bed!

Tuesday we went back to the Magic Kingdom. Nathan was walking much better and we had to force him to stay in the stroller to rest his hip. We went on all the favorite rides again and spent the whole day there once again. It was really nice to revisit what we had just done and I think the kids enjoyed the second day even more than the first. We went over to the Polynesian Hotel for dinner with thoughts of returning to the Magic Kingdom for fireworks, but we were all just way too tired for that and went back and went to bed.

Wednesday was our last day and we had a leisurely morning at GKTW while the kids played with all the activities there. We went out to lunch (Steak and Shake again!) and back to GKTW for ice cream and then back to the airport. Nathan was very happy to find out they would be showing the Incredibles on the plane and he sat and watch that without a word. Julia watched TV and was also very good and quiet. All was fine until about 45 minutes from landing when we were told that the Denver airport was closed due to weather. We circled for a while and then headed to denver. When we were almost there we were told it was closed again and had to land in Colorado Springs. It was a very bumpy ride down and I actually got sick. We were then told we would sit on the airplane in Colorado Springs until the Denver airport opened. No one was allowed to get off. Fortunately, Nathan and Julia mostly slept through all of this. So - we sat there for a few more hours and finally got to go to Denver. We caught our limo and got home around 1:00 am.

We spent Thursday recovering from all of this. Today it came to my attention that Nathan's leg was still bothering him somewhat so I took him to see the pediatrician. She talked to the oncologist and they decided to send him to an orthopedist on Monday. I am not really concerned about this being cancer considering what we just went through - but it does appear his hip has not healed and we need to make sure we know what is going on. We do like the orthopedist. She is the one who pushed for all the tests and diagnosed Nathan so quickly two years ago. Hopefully we will figure this out and move on. I will talk to the oncologist later today to hear his thoughts.

Meanwhile - Julia seems to be doing fine. She will have bloodwork done and an appointment with the cardiologist on Wednesday and we are crossing our fingers that her echo is normal and her labs are trending down to normal.

I have to admit - I am SO tired of all things medical. I am really hoping for resolution with both kids for at least a few weeks.

So - that's about it.....I will update later with more medical happenings when we know anything and I will post some pictures soon too.